What I had done on 2010?

what I had done on year 2010 ?
This is a common question...
but sometime it also recall back the memories from January 2010 to December 2010...

January
~> busy with my mother in the Hospital
~> countdown New Year 2010 at Malacca
~> went to Malacca and Genting with a batch of friends...

February
~> it was a wonderful Chinese New Year...
~> grandparent outstation and had BBQ
~> go house visiting with friends

March
~> collage started and everything was a mess in the begining of the semester
~> busy on collage lifestyle ( getting textbook and all those)

April
~> had a headache and skipped a class...
~> had my contact lens

June
~> watched one piece ( first anime I catch for 2 week of holiday )
~> started my Badminton sport with a batch of friends

July
~> started my new semester
~> the last semester result was so slow out
~> worry the few week on result
~> can`t even select a proper timetable

August
~> it was my birthday and had some time with all those ECU members
~> it was the ECU steamboat
~> everyone was so happy that time and also Facebook continues the topic
~> planned to study but didn't done it ( lazy me )
~> got some trouble of friends influence but I resisted
~> got lost in the Jungle of FRS

September
~> mid semester break
~> still busy with assignment
~> had the bad time on holiday

October
~> busy busy time
~> exam close but yet not yet study
~> pressure on assignment and presentation
~> feel tired and moody the whole time

November
~> almost all my assignment
~> attend my first prom night
~> suit up like the first time
~> busy presentation and also wanted to end my assignment

December
~> the first few day was busy finding job ( accountant internship)
~> then each time got some critics said was too short and make an alternative jobs
~> went to Kelantan trips with my family
~> laying down with bored
~> finding other jobs

P.S. today is new year eve for 2011
my memories of recorded in my blog for each month ( expect May)

the limit of my life...

There are a lot stuffs that happen in my life...
I don't know that you reader heard before about my bad lung...
sometimes saw the place where I vomit those blood...
really freaking me out....
sometimes feel the pain of my body ...
making me worry...

Yesterday, my body was in pain ....
thinking that the scene will happen again ...
didn't think much ...
asking my mother bring me to hospital...
for specialist check up....
cost me around Rm170++

i know it expensive .. but what to do ...
bad lung that the God gave me ....
had to suffer from struggling the pain...
had to suffer from expensive cost....
had to suffer from so many stuffs...

Yesterday ... was ready to tell everyone I going into hospital...
and also written a sms to said cancel today plan...
but yet ... lucky me ... didn`t really had to enter hospital...

Today... when searching for jobs....
I was thinking ... a bad health like this... still wanna find jobs ?
I prefer stay at home ...
then when thought of my friends that I drag them today ...
If I can't do the jobs... just left to them ...
at least they also finding jobs....

A bad health like me still can stand so long....
feeling of the melting candle in my heart...

sometimes people think the future was easy to predict ...
but there always hard to tell...
some people think I joking ... but I am not....

really the feeling of death is getting near to me ....
hoping someone beside me...
to hear what I think.....
to keep every secret.....
to wipe each tears of mine...
to see what I view...

P.S. dad, I wish you are here....

Almost one month abandon my blog...

Let me start from Oct15 until now what had happen in my life...
( try to record every scenes)

First of all rush on my assignments...
I know most people hate assignments....
but it become a part of ECU life ...
2 Subject that is 100% assignment base....
and 2 Subject need 50% assignment and 50% of final exam...

While doing assignment .. of course some misunderstand happens ...
and conflicts .... (I don`t wanna record any bad news around here...)
But no matter what conflicts and misunderstand ...
sometimes .. it brings close relationship ....

After all those rushing ... of course, we had some break time....
that is when prom nite come into my life ....
prom nite for a farewell of HICT in Klang...
it was nice overall ... of course, my soul was not with me that time....
due to that assignment .. day and night was not enough sleep....
( that is why my soul was not around)

On that day .. my thought are going around and around....
because of assignment...preparation and all those stuffs...
now was think ... if my soul was around that time ... surely joining them into club sessions...
but everything was a past...
( don`t bother to think back sometimes)

After that nite ...was relax a bit ... but still need to rush assignment ...
revision and all those preparation for final paper....
was done in last minutes....
On assignment .. I saw some was struggling and some was done on time....
I know I wanna done my best for assignment and final paper...

Of course, stay up late night and wake up early morning...
will get my temper out of control.... ( I mean easily get anger)
but I try to control myself somehow ...
uncomfortable sleeping time will bring a mess on my days....

After the last presentation... my whole body feeling relief...
and also feel happy to done one huge documents with all efforts....
On that day also ... everyone need to start rushing for final ...
Lucky, tips are given... if not .. everyone was cracking brains....

On final week... once done my FRS paper ...
really felt disappointed... just done a biggest mistake somehow ....
scoring that paper.. was difficult...
just hoping it pass only ...
( doesn`t wanna get HD or D )
( the higher the expectation the higher the disappointment)

of course .. after that paper ...
3day for studying my law subject ...
try to bringing the letters and words into brains...
the only things I hate....
is memorize words...

but on that day... overall look like going well...
just some parts.. was trying to get some marks out of it...
Hopping my law will pass this time....
( suffer with law in my ECU life)

after the law test...
going back my normal life...
(sleeping is my number one concern)
I didn`t when back home...
just hanging around... and prepare for a celebration for Xin Yin...
I struggle on waking my brain up ....
and when through the day with all of them....
was happy .. yet tiring ..

PS: Finish all those assignment, Final paper and some events... making my whole brain tired...

I record that all on my brain....
I know I very fast forget .....
this give me an advantage ..
to forget all the sad scene.... and moving forward...
(sometimes just hate people bring up all those past)
past = past ... u can`t change a things from that ....

ok de la.. stop over here...

Had been abondan you for a while....

Almost one month had not touch these blog...
missing the feeling on write somehow...
busy going up and down .... turning right to left...

All those words in internet had translate to a piece of assignment....
reading 100 words to get 1 meaning...
suddenly thinking .. what the use of assignment ?
just for a sick of marks... we had to do...

those tests need to make my head big enough to answer it ...
but after a moment... try to relax .. and those things had gone in my head...
wake up 24 hour to get my works done....
my sleeping time is getting so short...

feeling so tiring day by day...
wondering someone to come comfort me ...
wondering someone understand me.....
wondering someone to get along my life....

But there always nobody there....
tear drop at the moment that you left me alone...
heart pain when saw you suffer...
don`t know what should I do...

suddenly miss so many people in my life....
wondering can turn the clock back from the start ?




This 2 song me keep heard... it suit on my feeling right now ....

one week holiday~

yea~! one week holiday going to be started...
but me can't holiday =(
assignment need to be start processing...
case study need to start read...
FRS need to study @@

a lot more work need to do...
last Friday and Saturday...
we had some fun with the juniors...
joking around and playing around...

badminton seem to be a sport sessions in my life..
book seem to be a bible that need to read....
assignment seem to be the stressed job in my life...

By the ways, organizing a thing is so damn bloody difficulties...
because others will had their family holiday...
and some of them will be busy...
@@ headache.... but dono why I prefer to organizing it... haha...

tomorrow will be Sunday...
normally christian will had Sunday school and had their praying going on...
but the sad part of my case is...
going to college for a lecturing....
Come on ~! Sunday lecture?? sux..

(Ps: Congrats to Huei , swallow a table medical)
(Ps: hate my lung getting uncomfortable ways of sleeping)

I am totally in troubles now!!

I was plan to done my FRS chapter to up-to-date....
but it turn out...bad ..
I didn`t even touch that book for that four day that I planned...
I guess I been playing and wasted my time ...

need to get myself to be serious...
FRS test 1 is damn near and I still relaxing -.-!!
need to start my FRS revision whenever there is time ....

my Business plan @@ need to start to do also ...
ARGH!!! need to get myself to a serious mode....
lacking of time and also busy assignment ....
headache on my ways....

Wish me good luck friends...

A week had just pass

A week had pass just a click of a mouse....
a lot trouble and difficulties last whole week...
I know some of you all was shock or surprise on my decision...
seriously, friends influence can`t effect me....
When the date and time give at that time...
my brain was thinking on the opportunity cost...
which date was better and there goes my decisions...

Monday for 6 hours is much more better than Tuesday...
some of you wondering why...
there always some different between you and me...
that make all the different....
( PS: you can ask me directly if you really wanna know)

On Wednesday, there always a lot of confusion on FRS @@
it just because didn`t study the topics yet ...
and there is when I decide to make it as a sleeping book...
(I mean before sleep , take and read at least a few pages...)

On Thursday onwards, busy until Sunday ...
busy at night and at afternoon and at morning....

On Friday, we so long didn`t play badminton had make us exhausted so fast =.=!!
and also people complaining muscle pain....
I think most of my friends didn`t exercise much ...

By the ways, just worry on my result that coming out...
and worry my FRS... still at the first chapter had not move yet ...
I need more time in one days.... T.T

it's monday

Monday so fast reach de...
I was planned to study FRS instead of Facebook...
but ended up busy Facebook =.=

I read just a few pages in front...
then stop -.-
haiz ... need to get rip of computer in my life de...

By the way, read on the star online news..
found some interesting topics and post on facebook...
diseases seem like getting more and also death =.=
death due to silly love ?
death due on silly disease?
really wasted life ....
haiz... dono what can do to stop it @@

people around me asking to get a GF ..
but what I can do is denied...
I think just need to wait for a person...
and also get silly dream about it... @@

GF seem to be less important than my study...
actually we had waste all our life into study...
since the day, we enter kindergarten up to secondary school...
it had been around 10 year in studies....

so just need to keep on study until the end of the days...
knowledge is so important than getting a real lifestyle...
haha...
need to go to bed...
if not tomolo, 6hour of lecture -.-

Steamboat for ECU

Never knew that we had out for one whole day...
The first things that was after class...
out for snooker and also watch movie...
found some that watching the same show as us...

but after that...
people was going crazy in the steamboat...
didn`t expected to be....

groups had divide us but yet our soul had some connection...
too bad there are some group not joining us for dinner...
it was fun ... playing around with seniors and juniors...
chat at facebook....
like nobody business..

never thought that they will going so extreme....
and also one of the friends was so happy...
the crowd was amazing ....
the food had fill up the whole tank...
the laughter had full of enjoyable time...

really didn`t miss out such an amazing event...
hoping there will be more interesting for the next year....
and also hoping that everyone was happy...

20th birthday just ended

Actually I always dream before my birthday...
dream about what going to happen..
and also dream what I going to be in the future...

but mostly none of it happen..=(
actually was thinking my brother will purposely return home...
and give me a surprise...but none....

Then on the second thought of my sisters ...
will come down Klang like last year..
give me a huge surprise... but none...

Then on the third thought of my aunt and my cousin...
will suddenly come and give me a surprise....
but none...

Therefore, I think that every time I dream....
none will happen...

I don`t mind...just get use to be alone with the computer ...
celebrate wit my computer by watching drama...
lolz... funny me ...

sometimes, people said a Birthday is just an ordinary day...
and sometimes, people said it a miracle day that is the day that u are born...
so I think both almost the same...

but really grateful that recieve so many wishes from my friends and cousin...
err... actually me having a useless brother...
didn`t get anything and any wish from him....
lolz...

nothing much happen on my birthday ...
as I just treat it as my holiday ...
haha...

PS: worry about result and also my assignment...

Patience also had a limit

Talking about patience...
I very patience is small problems....
even you accidentally hit or scolded the wrong person...
but there always a limit of it...

I easily get piss off if a person deliver a wrong massages and effect the leading...
wrong info can make a huge mistake and also effect every single things beside...
these is against my patience...
but ...
after a few minutes those anger get disappear...

really hate to get myself piss off....
once piss off.. everyone beside me will get shock ... lol...=.=

Now everything back to normal...
just need to claim myself in a silence place....

by the ways, tomorrow class start at 11am or 12pm...
everyone was not sure...
because of that stupid coordinator give wrong info...

hoping 12pm is the time that start class...
and also hoping my results was all passed...

New semester, More stress

It had been a month doesn`t update...
because on the holiday mood, enjoy my drama and also One Piece...
It seem like most of the people enjoy on watch Anime specially those interesting one...
I didn`t watch much Anime...
Just some but One Piece really attract me one episode by one episode...
a lot of challenge that they face and they spirit they had in their heart..
unbelievable scenes can be seem in the show...

the whole holiday was busy watch One Piece...
and also waiting for result...
can`t sleep well and worry throughout my whole night...

even the class start by 3 day ...
the result and the decision that been make wasn`t a confirmation...
books that need to buy was a total mess...
everyone is kinda lost in the huge jungle....

hoping the result was out fast=.=

Other than that, seem like attending 3 subject of lecture...
and the Unit Plan for the whole semester seem like a nightmare...
INB2302 need to build a company and make analysis...
week 7 need to prepare one whole bundle of tasks...
BES2100 as usual ASSIGMENT is like a mad subject...
ACC2700 presentation 10% is a huge amount....
and also need look smart, be communicative, interaction and also understand the topics well

These semester will be more presentation and also ASSIGMENT...
It seem to be 3am but me need to wake up at 8am...
wat the hack!! I can`t sleep... worry result ...

I think these will be the end of my post...
hope my life will be more interesting^^v

What a life I had ??

I just a little bored these days..
so planned to update the blog...
I know I lost my spirits of continues these blog when one by one of my friend left it blog empty...

That is why I left is so long in silences~~

3 month passed and I didn`t even touch my blog...
I pass through but just look at my friends updated blog ...
My exam finish and now lay back at house relax for the next three week....

it quite a adventures life I got into ...
because I am total different from others people...
suffering and stress really got myself in a difficult time...
Sometimes need to struggle myself and all my strength to push me up every morning..

On the whole semester is all about presentation ....
me don`t even get a piece of ideas of from the subject -.-!!
except for account.... learn quite a lot...

OK... stop thinking of these after all passed ...
badminton seem to be the only sport I doing now ...
I don`t know still can continues with my basketball...
therefore, planing to give a try someday....

Other than that, now enjoying watching one piece...
there are about 450++ episode ...
don`t know can finish watch until the latest or not @@

ok la.. really got no ideas what to continues write...
maybe the next post will be more...

One month passed .. and I didn`t know that it so fast -.-!!

My life goes on as normal ...
But last week had a unusual headache come to me ...
that was on last Monday, I can`t even think of anythings...
It really like someone pressing my brain and those pain like bang into a wall...
I close my eyes ... and it try to take a rest..
dono why it reflect my memory back to the day I met her....
nothing else I can do... just take a dream of it...

after all those dream...
I skip a class where on the morning ...
and the time was so fast until my second class wanted to start...
I rush to college to attend that class...

I tell myself, what had happen these morning ..
something wonderful or something bad ??

A the night of Monday, my brother call...
my mother like ... "faster faster .. go fetch ur brother..."
then I goes .." ok ok "
drive all the ways to AEON to pick up my brother...
on the ways, back ... I tell my brother.. "I wanna give a try on contact lens..."
He straight away said .. the shop haven`t close.. you can go now if u wan...
Then I like NOW~~!!!
he said YA ~~ if not u wanna wait when -.-!!
so goes to that shop...
On the shop, taking 2 times of eyes examine....
then only learn to wear contact lens....
slowly by slowly ..
I just like took 5 min to enter or less than that..

Those shop keeper " if everyone like you , we can save a lot of time de"
I like there laughing all my ways back home ... haha ...

YAP~~ I try to wear contact lens.... and it seem easy -.-!!

Week 3 of my college start ..

The first week ..
I had a problem of change my course from majoring accounting to double major ...
It really give me a huge headache day and night without stop thinking of it ...
and ended up with double majoring ...

on the first week ...
I enjoy some lecturer teaching style and some as usual bored....
pressure give was giving me motivation ...
but without textbook really a trouble...

the second week ...
busy with so many stuff...
I don`t really remember some of it de...
but really enjoy at my brother "subang house" ..

time goes really fast ..
all those happiness sometime just left behind....
me look like crazy person busy on so many stuff .....

the third week got textbook de...
but without reading on the textbook can`t done my tutorial ...
another problem .. I need time !!
why time move so fast ... don`t even know ....

hardworking of mine body ...
faster come back to me .....
I hate being lazy ... -.-!!

ok de la.. I think time goes by my life will be better ....

After 3 month of resting and college start de....

I didn`t realize .. time really fly ...
busy here and there ....
rushing in my life time really make my life move very fast....
Chinese people say the 15 date of new year started in Chinese calender...
is the ending of celebration for Chinese New Year....

Today is the ending of Chinese New year and also the ending of my holiday ...
3 month passed just like a wind....
watch a few movie with the frenz....
and also visit places that interesting near klang area....

me had learn a lot ... and also fall down....
life is really complicate if u don`t understand each another ...
and something true can`t be tell and had to change to fake...

haiz ... walk in my path of life ...
really need to change a lot of things....
anyways ..

hope tomorrow had great day for me ...

CNY was great for one week

These year Chinese New Year was great ...
Chinese New Year Eve ...
grandparent was out station and some relative was free ...
so we make a BBQ session at my grandparent house..
I never thought it was a great ideas...
BBQ in the middle of the roadside and having joy and fun talking wit cousins....

A short period of time just pass ....
we like 1million years didn`t met ...
talking crap and also talking some funny stuff ...
really enjoy ... that night was hot and cold..
cause it rain after all those BBQ session done ...

The first day ...
I went to some relative house and some cousin friend house...
enjoy my day .. and damn tired....

The second day ...
didn`t went much place ...
just went to my schoolmate house and busy with my day de....
Oh ya ... my cousin left the dogs in my house and went to Pangkor...
get use wit a dog in my house .... haha...

The third day ...
when to my collage-mate houses ....
and also we went for a movie ...
it was late night ... and ending trip in my house ...
damn tired and sleep everyone look .. haha ...

The Forth day ..
didn`t go much place at the afternoon ...
Just busy on some stuff ...
then around 5pm at JJ Aeon ... we chat and walk ...
end up at KKS house to get a place to wait those rain gone ...
then only move up to Dong Zen Temple ..
it was a famous temple in Selangor...
wonderful and nice time ...

The rest of the day ....
I was busy hunting for second hand car ...
my brother get a headache .. so do me...
helping him to find one...
up and down and left and right of the city .....
too many second hand shop ...
one by one enter .. really get yourself tired and exhausted...

My college life is going to start ...
worry ? excited ? nervous ?
don`t know what feeling will had ...
mixed like cendol ...

Missing me in Holiday season

Everyone that read my blog or look at my blog ....
wonder where I missing all those days ??
time really fly sometimes...

On December was busy with my mother condition in SJMC ...
and now she is back on health back ....

that was my hard time ... where going up and down Subang Jaya @@
and I was busying taking a good care of the house and arranging some of my time ...

really need to thanks God for protecting my mother all these time ...
I hardly sleep and hardly happy and hardly smile on that time ....
( Ps: me also worry so many stuff until keep forget what I need to do next )

On the January, my mother was back from SJMC ...
and she stay at grandparent house of some reasons...
me also the same busy here and there ...
but the best part ....

I got to enjoy on the Malacca trips with my schoolmates ....
I got to enjoy on Genting trips with collage mates...
that was the best time on January ...
other than that, I was helping out my mother and also work as part-timer....
really enjoy and busy on the same time ....

yea... my sisters come down to Klang twice on January..
really appreciate them with the time ...
they also introduce me to a person that live in Klang....
( Ps: love you both sister ...)

Ending of the January , I went to Sungai Wang ( money river ) with my friends...
when back home , my aunty ask why didnt tell her -.-!!
cause she wanna go also ....
anyways, go out wit friends... and dono she wanna go also ...@@

OK ....
On these month a bit rushing for Chinese New Year...
clean house ... up and down and left and right ..
more easy to say .. the whole house ...
haha....

and my car... OMG .. haven`t wash yet ...
busy with cleaning house.....
and also went to night market for foods and cookies ...

Chinese New Year so close ....
but preparing ... 40% only -.-
anyways, these year Chinese New Year Eve will be missing ...
all relatives going to their own paths...
and of course the head of the family ( grandparent) went to Australia...

wonder what will be our CNY eve...
and also wonder who we will met ....
and also wonder what going to be in CNY....

haha ... new life and new starting for us...
Hope will had a great time ...

(PS : another scene forget to written down, faint in my mother dialysis center and nurses try to help me ... haha .. that was 4 February 2010 )
(PS : I will try to post blog when free)