Long time no see...

It seem like quite some months...
I did not post anything...
I guess me been too busy up and down studying..

Last 2 month, prepare for my final exam...
Once all finished, people start organize 21th birthday party..
I went dono how many times already...
Sometime too long did not meet up.. it will end up to be stranger....

I really miss the college life..
It just end in a blink of the eyes...
I don't even remember what I done last 4 years....
It just accumulation of knowledge...

After exam, everyone seem like tension on find jobs...
Posting at Facebook like nobody business...
I even went to Melaka with a group of friends...
Main Target : FOOD

Melaka a lot of food... which like a food paradise....
Cannot even finish finding in one day...
The other side of it....
We found a bad location of hotel...
It also make us suffer with NO WIFI !!!

After all those things...
I don't even know I found a job...
It was so lucky...
I did not really email the company....
but faith just bring me into the company...
Which I can said the POWER of QUAN XI (relationship)

This is how I found Everest Logistic Integrate Sdn. Bhd.
It was not big company... and it was not small company...
I just started 5 days of working...
I enjoy... I gain knowledge... I find solution by my own...
Next week going to be more challenging...

After that 5 days, I went for Christmas party at my friend house...
Can see some drama and also had some joke around....
As usual having steamboat and alcohol...

But there is one things come into my mind...
all was just a flash light.... because silly past things...
It all started with my friend which introduce me to chat with her...
The first time, I does not know WHO is that person I was sms quite some months...
then we meet up at JL house... I was very shy and can't said much things...
I did not talk to her that time... As usual... not dare to talk to girl >.
( I was from boy school... suddenly talk to girl, it will felt awkward)
Then ended up... Did not continue sms her already...

Yesterday, just met her... I was shy also...
because of the silly things that I done last time...
I does not know what her thinking toward that time...
But I know I was so silly sms one unknown and ended met up somewhere...
That how I always become curious on every single things....

Does not wanna drag more stories about it already...
That was just one scene from the past...

Friends?

Life is always the same with me...
There only some event had make me piss off...
There always a person that always make me happy...
I know some will see what I wrote here... and some will just ignore like nothing happen...
Friends for me always a passersby...
Once they come, they put fire, they put ice, they put everything...
After a few moments, it goes like nothing happen...

I know some will be regret and some will be sad after what happen...
There moment, I left the table with those angers....
I went back to every mistake that my friends did....
The place where they make people misunderstanding...
The place where they was not purpose to do it....
The place where they had been done for thier own sake...

All this time, helping my friends...
What more can I get as a payoff ?
Nothing...

Without thinking of that...
Do you ever think what kinda life I when through??
Hearing all those sad news towards my friends...
And all I did is convince them back like nothing happen...
All this happen when the college started in Freaser Park...

Without thinking that...
Do you ever think of my difficulties bringing stuffs to Freaser Park??
I always bring a lot stuffs... it because I worry I miss out something...
My bags was so heavy while I went up and down of college...
Bringing something that is fragile... It was my main concerns...
Bring foods? Bring Assignment? Bring one whole box of books?

Nothing had payoff...
Being tired after or before the class...
It will be normal for me...
One hour inside the bus can't do much but sleep...

While you still said I did not concern of you all??
While you still complaining of all those craps??
All those angers from the previous life in Klang and what I having now...
was not just a simple one... It just accumulated inside my heart...

Other than all those things...
Telling you all about my feeling was not worth at all...
Because of the EGO inside... which does not think of others situations...
Specially those that does not really concerns and appreciate a person beside them...
Really does get people angry so easily...

Some said I been too emotional and some will said I was nothing at all...
I don't care whatever stuffs you think of...
I just being a human being that live in this worlds...
You can judge me like whoever care...
But at least judge it on a correct ways...

Life goes on like usual...
No matters who beside me... It was not the concern at all..
I can be alone in this world... I can be whatever you think of...
I just being me and myself...

Signing off,
Tommyterm.

Memorable time with my car~!

One fine day, I was driving this friend on the way...
I was describing how I am going to modified my car and all those...
But seriously cost a lot....
His reply like "It is worthy to modified this old junk?"
I was talking on body kit, radio, colour my car, and all those...
My mind was saying: Yes, of course... A car just like a moving home...
Try to think....
How much time you had spend on driving? 1 hours? 2 hours? and even some short distance....
The worst is more than 3 hours...
This tiny little space which can't do much things...
Long journey, which we can done is talking, eating and sleeping...

There is when you start thinking on something to do...
I had experiences several times on long journey...
BORED and TIRED...

So I just told him... Ya, it is worthy... and try asking another thing...
"Do you think I should throw this old junk and get a new one??"
he said No, I know it still can work for several years...
but modified until like that... Was not nice...

There is when I started thinking...
I had a lot bitter and sweet memories in this car...
IMPOSSIBLE throw it away....
I had owe this car a big help which carry me around...
Back to past,
driving some student back home and earning some pocket money....
driving me up and down of the town to go school..
driving me to clinic when I am sick...
driving me to shop to grab some stuffs...
driving me to anywhere at anytime...

I had only one car in my life...
Which help me a lot and giving me the things that money can't buy...
Car is just like a girlfriend...
No matter what my girlfriend look like...
Just a little make over here and there....
It will become beautiful...
Car also the same...
Just do here and there...
It become a brand new car...

P.S.
Leroy and Nicole, Do you still remember the time we are small, how we use to play and talk in the car?
It give a really nice memories between us... ^.^

Saturday and Sunday

Every Saturday and Sunday seem to be the same for me...
No much activities but more in sleeping...
Those tired is from Monday until Thursday...
Wake up early and can't get a deeply sleep.....
Which I means by 4~5 hours of sleeping...

All because of traveling to college...
All because of worry...
All because of undone jobs...

I wish all these will gone forever...
but one last semester... before it ends...
Suffer to get benefits... so I does not mind so much...

This Saturday and Sunday....
really damn tired... slept more than 12 hours...
even get afternoon nap... 2~3 hours...
eat and sleep... wondering can become fat or not >.<

Really tired make me lazy and sleepy...
Mentalist drama make me gone mad...
Next week Friday gonna have a test coming soon...
And I am demotivated...

Wondering what to do... and what to done...
Assignments also coming soon...
@@ A lot undone stuffs and I am demotivated...
Really gonna start off my MA and get ready for all those stuffs...

P.S. Sometimes felt lonely in a big world and hoping someone accompany me...

Getting rip my lazy

This few day felt myself was so lazy to do stuffs...
I know a lot of assignment is waiting for me...
Mid term test is coming...
First assignment that need to be submit is on the coming Monday....
and I was like haven't started my brain....

Tutorial like a mountains every week...
TIRED is all in my mind....
That why I come across DRAMA...
Don't know who is the hell create this...
Drama make me more lazy...
Back home... drama....
Do homework time... drama....
Like totally addicted like drugs....

All had to end in one ways....
Get my brain function....
Put the biggest full stop at drama...
and once nothing to do... start do HOMEWORK...

Tommy.. oh Tommy...
Faster get prepare for everything in front...
Huge war is coming... cannot be lazy d...

To Myself so can get motivated... >.<

Signing off,
Tommyterm

My mid semester started..

Now is the beginning of my mid-semester...
One week holiday... wondering to start studying...
Lecture so fast like train...
My brain adsorb so slow >.<

Last week,
I started to imagining how my life in the future going to be...
so I started just a based of every foundation of life...
Morality and the meaning of life...
Once we are small... we learn step by step...
and we know our mistake to be learn...
But once time goes on....
we started to forget what we had learn...
there goes our mistake...

There how I learn from this little monk...

He is impatient person just like you and me....
Mistake that he done... is every foundation of everyone life...
Therefore, I continue watched this short clip until the end...

I learn and pick up some mistake that everyone had done...
Life is easy when everyone know the meaning of it...
This little monk show had open up my mind...
I had post a few on Facebook for share to all my friends...
Most of it was regarding to all my close friends...
the mistake that they had done... but does not realize...

Giving myself 2 day break...
so that I had a stable mind to start my study...
4 week of study.... but had not adsorb properly...
manage my time to get what I wanted...

Signing out,
Tommyterm