had abandon my blog for a fews days..

The last post was talking about CNY ...
This year CNY was just moderate...
Angpau money was not as many as last year...
But I don't mind...
It just enough to get my stuffs that I planned to buy....
Actually... Angpau money is just heart that given by family members..

Oh ya, I remember... meeting up with my old buddies....
It really turn back to the time in school...
we discuss about the current economic issues that will happen in Malaysia...
some of them really change from good to bad..
just for some sick of socialize, some of them really went into smoking and alcoholic..

I still prefer my own self...
I think I did not change seem that time I saw them...
just some contact lens...

Oh ya, I and my college mate had went to KLCC by car....
and went for several places...
of course, not to forget the temple of Dong Fang Shi...
last year was nicer than this year...
this year was extra one huge circus for those children...
as usual it look beautiful as they are...

after that week of CNY, I did not went others places...
just some normal outing like KTV and also movies...
of course not to miss our badminton sports...

Just pass a few days, we went to badminton ...
I feel so energetic cause it was at night...
not sleepy and not tired...
then, it suddenly talk about Penang....
Penang was the last minutes plan...
Of course, not to worry about hotel and all those...
cause it was not the peak season...

Now was 6.10am in the morning...
was haven't slept...
so I better go for a nap...
Later 10am need to wake up again...

signing off,
Tommyterm

The whole time in holiday + first day of CNY

Ya, It was true ..
I was searching for jobs throughout my holiday but once it reaches 2 more months left ...
I decide to get myself down...
cause will know by that time will be busy becoming a driver for my mother....
going out and in of the house...
a lot stuff had happens and I really believe my mother will more concern my brother instead of me...
sad case happen, until my shopping spree for CNY mood was broken ...

I brought just a one T-shirt that I like and others was just kinda not in taste...-.-
sometimes .. bought a clothes was not easy as it seem...
get myself headache when choosing...
my mother and my brother mind was getting more older look for me...
but myself .. I prefer younger look cause not yet so old...

Other than that, there are some others day was going for badminton with friends...
and also friend 21th Birthday party...
I miss the fun with my cousin Birthday party...
life is like that.. there are 2 road and need to choose the one that feel preferable...
I went Kuantan... and it was awesome with my cousins... haha...
(PS: sorry my friends .. didn't attend that birthday party and also PD trips)

Today is the second day of CNY ...
I was wanted to write on the first of CNY ...
but something happen...
make myself slept for a while ..

The early morning of CNY...
dragging myself off my comfortable bed...
and went to my grandparent house...
then later it went bored and sleepy =.=
after 3.30pm, drive off to MBO and watch a movie with my parent and grandpa...
then later on was straight went to my close grandparent aunt house...
on there... open up one Martell and Red wine...
Both should not mix cause the effect is so strong...
lucky I control my level of drinking...
and one of my cousin... when drunk=.=

( PS: It was really the first time saw my grandparent accept this situation )

I almost got myself drunk .. but still can make it through...
that is what make me slept a while ...

haha ... now was 4.16am in the morning ...
blogging about wat happen on the first day of CNY ...

sign off,
Tommyterm

What I had done on 2010?

what I had done on year 2010 ?
This is a common question...
but sometime it also recall back the memories from January 2010 to December 2010...

January
~> busy with my mother in the Hospital
~> countdown New Year 2010 at Malacca
~> went to Malacca and Genting with a batch of friends...

February
~> it was a wonderful Chinese New Year...
~> grandparent outstation and had BBQ
~> go house visiting with friends

March
~> collage started and everything was a mess in the begining of the semester
~> busy on collage lifestyle ( getting textbook and all those)

April
~> had a headache and skipped a class...
~> had my contact lens

June
~> watched one piece ( first anime I catch for 2 week of holiday )
~> started my Badminton sport with a batch of friends

July
~> started my new semester
~> the last semester result was so slow out
~> worry the few week on result
~> can`t even select a proper timetable

August
~> it was my birthday and had some time with all those ECU members
~> it was the ECU steamboat
~> everyone was so happy that time and also Facebook continues the topic
~> planned to study but didn't done it ( lazy me )
~> got some trouble of friends influence but I resisted
~> got lost in the Jungle of FRS

September
~> mid semester break
~> still busy with assignment
~> had the bad time on holiday

October
~> busy busy time
~> exam close but yet not yet study
~> pressure on assignment and presentation
~> feel tired and moody the whole time

November
~> almost all my assignment
~> attend my first prom night
~> suit up like the first time
~> busy presentation and also wanted to end my assignment

December
~> the first few day was busy finding job ( accountant internship)
~> then each time got some critics said was too short and make an alternative jobs
~> went to Kelantan trips with my family
~> laying down with bored
~> finding other jobs

P.S. today is new year eve for 2011
my memories of recorded in my blog for each month ( expect May)

the limit of my life...

There are a lot stuffs that happen in my life...
I don't know that you reader heard before about my bad lung...
sometimes saw the place where I vomit those blood...
really freaking me out....
sometimes feel the pain of my body ...
making me worry...

Yesterday, my body was in pain ....
thinking that the scene will happen again ...
didn't think much ...
asking my mother bring me to hospital...
for specialist check up....
cost me around Rm170++

i know it expensive .. but what to do ...
bad lung that the God gave me ....
had to suffer from struggling the pain...
had to suffer from expensive cost....
had to suffer from so many stuffs...

Yesterday ... was ready to tell everyone I going into hospital...
and also written a sms to said cancel today plan...
but yet ... lucky me ... didn`t really had to enter hospital...

Today... when searching for jobs....
I was thinking ... a bad health like this... still wanna find jobs ?
I prefer stay at home ...
then when thought of my friends that I drag them today ...
If I can't do the jobs... just left to them ...
at least they also finding jobs....

A bad health like me still can stand so long....
feeling of the melting candle in my heart...

sometimes people think the future was easy to predict ...
but there always hard to tell...
some people think I joking ... but I am not....

really the feeling of death is getting near to me ....
hoping someone beside me...
to hear what I think.....
to keep every secret.....
to wipe each tears of mine...
to see what I view...

P.S. dad, I wish you are here....

Almost one month abandon my blog...

Let me start from Oct15 until now what had happen in my life...
( try to record every scenes)

First of all rush on my assignments...
I know most people hate assignments....
but it become a part of ECU life ...
2 Subject that is 100% assignment base....
and 2 Subject need 50% assignment and 50% of final exam...

While doing assignment .. of course some misunderstand happens ...
and conflicts .... (I don`t wanna record any bad news around here...)
But no matter what conflicts and misunderstand ...
sometimes .. it brings close relationship ....

After all those rushing ... of course, we had some break time....
that is when prom nite come into my life ....
prom nite for a farewell of HICT in Klang...
it was nice overall ... of course, my soul was not with me that time....
due to that assignment .. day and night was not enough sleep....
( that is why my soul was not around)

On that day .. my thought are going around and around....
because of assignment...preparation and all those stuffs...
now was think ... if my soul was around that time ... surely joining them into club sessions...
but everything was a past...
( don`t bother to think back sometimes)

After that nite ...was relax a bit ... but still need to rush assignment ...
revision and all those preparation for final paper....
was done in last minutes....
On assignment .. I saw some was struggling and some was done on time....
I know I wanna done my best for assignment and final paper...

Of course, stay up late night and wake up early morning...
will get my temper out of control.... ( I mean easily get anger)
but I try to control myself somehow ...
uncomfortable sleeping time will bring a mess on my days....

After the last presentation... my whole body feeling relief...
and also feel happy to done one huge documents with all efforts....
On that day also ... everyone need to start rushing for final ...
Lucky, tips are given... if not .. everyone was cracking brains....

On final week... once done my FRS paper ...
really felt disappointed... just done a biggest mistake somehow ....
scoring that paper.. was difficult...
just hoping it pass only ...
( doesn`t wanna get HD or D )
( the higher the expectation the higher the disappointment)

of course .. after that paper ...
3day for studying my law subject ...
try to bringing the letters and words into brains...
the only things I hate....
is memorize words...

but on that day... overall look like going well...
just some parts.. was trying to get some marks out of it...
Hopping my law will pass this time....
( suffer with law in my ECU life)

after the law test...
going back my normal life...
(sleeping is my number one concern)
I didn`t when back home...
just hanging around... and prepare for a celebration for Xin Yin...
I struggle on waking my brain up ....
and when through the day with all of them....
was happy .. yet tiring ..

PS: Finish all those assignment, Final paper and some events... making my whole brain tired...

I record that all on my brain....
I know I very fast forget .....
this give me an advantage ..
to forget all the sad scene.... and moving forward...
(sometimes just hate people bring up all those past)
past = past ... u can`t change a things from that ....

ok de la.. stop over here...

Had been abondan you for a while....

Almost one month had not touch these blog...
missing the feeling on write somehow...
busy going up and down .... turning right to left...

All those words in internet had translate to a piece of assignment....
reading 100 words to get 1 meaning...
suddenly thinking .. what the use of assignment ?
just for a sick of marks... we had to do...

those tests need to make my head big enough to answer it ...
but after a moment... try to relax .. and those things had gone in my head...
wake up 24 hour to get my works done....
my sleeping time is getting so short...

feeling so tiring day by day...
wondering someone to come comfort me ...
wondering someone understand me.....
wondering someone to get along my life....

But there always nobody there....
tear drop at the moment that you left me alone...
heart pain when saw you suffer...
don`t know what should I do...

suddenly miss so many people in my life....
wondering can turn the clock back from the start ?




This 2 song me keep heard... it suit on my feeling right now ....

one week holiday~

yea~! one week holiday going to be started...
but me can't holiday =(
assignment need to be start processing...
case study need to start read...
FRS need to study @@

a lot more work need to do...
last Friday and Saturday...
we had some fun with the juniors...
joking around and playing around...

badminton seem to be a sport sessions in my life..
book seem to be a bible that need to read....
assignment seem to be the stressed job in my life...

By the ways, organizing a thing is so damn bloody difficulties...
because others will had their family holiday...
and some of them will be busy...
@@ headache.... but dono why I prefer to organizing it... haha...

tomorrow will be Sunday...
normally christian will had Sunday school and had their praying going on...
but the sad part of my case is...
going to college for a lecturing....
Come on ~! Sunday lecture?? sux..

(Ps: Congrats to Huei , swallow a table medical)
(Ps: hate my lung getting uncomfortable ways of sleeping)